You.

How is it possible that even after everything that has happened, I still feel something between us? And you can't deny that, it's there, I know it is. That's why I find it a lot easier to just not talk to you. Every time I see you in the hallway, or out in the smoke pit, my heart races, I don't even know how to explain it. It's a stronger attraction than I have ever felt for anyone before. As much as I hide it and will not admit it, I still have feelings for you. I don't know how it's possible, after you fucked her, while dating me, but I do. I understand that yeah sure, I was three hours away and 7 weeks is a lot of time. But, to go out and have sex with her? Really? You really did hurt me. Then, I tried to make things right again, I started talking to you. I thought things may have been good between us again. But, I just found it so hard to talk to you, in person. Everytime I saw you, my heart would race, and I was always scared of saying the wrong thing and screwing things up even more. I just don't know what to do anymore about you. I've pretty much moved on, well at least tried to, but, at the same time, it's hard when it's you I am thinking about.
I think what I am going to do is tell you whats going on, what I am thinking, and just see what happens, I geuss. I mean, whats the worst that could happen? You could say that you dont like me that way any more. Then I say, okay, whatever, and just get on with my life. No big deal.
I geuss what i am saying is, I don't really know what to do about you.