Woah is Me.

Wow. This usually doesn't happen. Not with me, anyways. For the first time in I don't even know how long, I became jealous. JEALOUS. Me. :/
So, I was in the library just chillin' with a friend of mine. (This friend of mine is really close to me, and we do the whole friends with benefits thing every so often) So we were in the library, he was on one computer, and I was the computer beside me. Then a friend came over and told said friend that there was a girl over there. (I don't know who it was, I really didn't want to know, actually.) So he logs off, and tells me he is going to go sit with them. WTF? He didn't even ask if I wanted to sit with them as well! He pretty much ditched me for some other chick. That pissed me off. Especially since, for the past week, I have been majorly hitting on him. I've been considering even possibly dating him. But then that. Kind of makes me things about things with him.
Fuck.

A Supposed Blockbuster

Those days with you
Meant the world to me
But I guess I never knew
For you they were only a show
Short lived, in the moment excitement
I wanted it to be more
A full length feature film
But you closed that door.
And now you're the star
Of another girl's movie
A supposed blockbuster
Soon to be a flop
Your luck will run out
And you'll see
What it's like to be
The damsel in distress
Saved by her prince
Then dumped
And left a mess
Those days with you
Meant the world to me
And one day you will be
The star to your own movie
Ending in disaster.

Done.

What do you do when your boyfriend stops talking to you for almost two weeks and then you find out he has been seeing some other girl during those two weeks? Do you run around screaming? Do you swear to get revenge on him? Do you lay in bed all day, crying because you miss him? Do you swear to never date again? I, personally, don't know what to do. I do know that, I am not doing any of the above mentioned. Why not, you ask? Simply because I am not going to bring myself down for his mistake. He's not worth it.
I am hurt, yes. Extremely so. We had been through so much this summer, I thought he would be more than just a camp boyfriend. Apparently not. He was just unable to keep it in his pants for an extended period of time.

Cold morning. No, let me rephrase that. Freezing cold morning. I don't want to leave the semi heat provided by my blankets. I pull them tighter around me, knowing I only have a few precious minutes left with them.

Beep. Beep. Beep. Beep.

Blasted alarm. Does it ever stop? There. Throwing a shoe at it seems to help muffle the noise.

Earth Day!

April 22nd, 2010. The 40th birthday of Earth Day. Every year at Stamford Collegiate, we take part in Earth Day festivities, and this year was no different. To start the beautiful morning of April 22nd (Earth Day) off, we had an assembly, outlining different reasons and ways to help the Earth. After this beautifully set assembly, we all set out to our period two classes to take part in enviromental activities. These activites ranged from picking up and sorting garbage from various locations to painting a mural outside the school. All of theses activities were designed and the staff and students of Stamford Collegiate enthusiactically engaged in helping the enviorment.

Mr. Pierce's period two class had signed up to pick up garbage along the Lundy's Lane area. I worked with four other students, cleaning up the area, focusing mainly on garbage and cigarette butts. We had covered the area from Burger King to Gino's, and ended up with two full bags of garbage, and two overflowing baggies of ciagette butts. The worst part of all this was that there was still a lot of garbage remaining.

Participating in picking up garbage in local areas, areas that we use and walk by everyday, can really open up your eyes to all of the filth that covers our naturally beautiful Earth. Our Earth has a natural beauty to it and is created to accomodate all living creatures, big and small. How are all of these living organisms supposed to continue to live if surrounded and overcome by garbage, as well as pollution?

That is where we step in. We, as human beings, have the ability to improve the life of our planet. We have the power to make a positive change to our planet, and it is up to us to introduce that change. The staff and students of Stamford Collegiate have done an excellent job at introducing, and maintaining this positive change to our enviorment.

We are the ones who can change the world, we are the ones who can make a difference, we are the ones who can restore the Earth to its natural beauty. Together, Stamford Collegiate has made an exceptional impact on the enviroment, and will continue to do so for years to come.

I do not know what to think anymore. I feel as if I am slowly, very slowly dorwning into a lake. A lake from which I will be unable to return from once I reach the soft sandy bottom.

Well, I guess you gave me a pretty good understanding of where we actually stand. It's clear now that you want nothing to do with me. And, thats fine with me, really. Cause truthfully? I don't want anything to do with you either. If you are going to treat me like shit, and just outright ignore me, then you are deffainetly not worth my time. Sad thing is, I once thought you were. Thanks for clearing that up for me.

Your mysteriousness? Yeah, not working for me, at all. All it is doing is pissing me the fuck off. On New Years, we were together, and I admit, I had a little too much to drink, and I told you something. I told you that I still like you, a lot. And, I get nothing in return? You don't repsond at all. Then your brother askes you who you like, and you wont tell him. So I ask you, and ask and keep on asking. You still haven't said. You claim that you enjoy bugging me and being mysterious. Bullshit. You're just too scared to admit that you still like me. Or that you don't like me? I don't care if you don't. I'm a big girl now, pretty sure I can handle it. The thing is, I need to know. No bullshit, just be straight forward with me and let me know. Cause, I can't take this anymore. It's pissing me off, like seriously is.

Well, at least I know for sure that one person likes me. Only problem? I don't like him. Sure I like to flirt with him and dont mind makiing out with him, but that's it. I guess you could call us, friends with benefits? We are just way too different to actually be good together. A good, strong relationship is based on trust, mutual respect, communication, similar values and a bunch of other stuff. First off, I don't trust you. I don't think you would ever hurt me, or whatever, but I still don' trust you. All the other stuff don't even count if I can't trust you.

Fuck this.