FML.

I dont know what to do anymore. I like you, a lot. I can't help how I feel. And, I know that we would be together if she wasnt in the picture. But the thing is, she is. She's your girlfriend. That's the part that I don't like. And the part that I dont want to deal with. She's a bitch. And, I dont understand why you are still wih her. But, I geuss, thats just your decision. If you dont want to leave her, then whatever. Im still going to be friends with you. I just dont like the way she treats me. If may be just over facebook, but still. Im gonna stay out of it, because she's not worth my time. But, if I have to fight, I will. I just want to know, why you are still with her. And why you still like me. This is so hard.

<3

You sit there, thinking
I wonder of what
Many things, you say
A billion little things at once
I tell you the same

But we both know,
What we are really thinking
Not a billion things
No, just one
Thinking of each other

I want to be with you
You want to be with me
Let's stop with this cherade
And just let it be
Just you and me

Over You.

I'm done. Finished, completely done. I can't do this anymore. I can't sit around waiting for you to make a decision. I am taking matters into my own hands now, and I am doing what I have wanted to do for so long. I'm leaving you. Well, not in that exact context. You've already left me. So, how can I put this? I'm not leaving with you, I just don't want anymore to do with you. Things between you and I have become too awkward and we would have to start from rock bottom to ahve anything. I would have to get past the fact that you cheated on me, and hurt me, and you would have to not be such an ass. See, what your problem is, is that you are unable to make up your mind. You want too many things at once, and just like the Rolling Stones said, you can't always get what you want.
So, pretty much, I'm done with you. Things are over between us. The only way I am going to be able to enter another relationship without hurting someone, is to get over you completely first. So, this is my first step towards that. You are out of my life, and I will get over you.

You?

You drive me crazy just by being there and I don't know what to do. He talked to you about me, told you what I was thinking, what I was feeling, what I wanted to do, about you. Your respond saying you already knew all he jsut told you. My question to you is, why? Why then, if you knew that I still liked you, did you not do anything about it? You say that you want to try the whole relationship thing with me again, but I don't quite know if I can do that just yet. You don't seem to know what you want. One minute you want me back, the next, you are not talking to me, now you want to try again.
Well, if we are going to try again, things are not going to be the same. You do know that, right? How could they be the same? We have went the summer plus a few months without talking. In that time both of us have changed. So, if we want to try this again and make it work, we have to start from rock-bottom and work our ways up. There is simply no other way to it. Are you willing to start from rock bottom?
In all honesty, I don't quite know if I am going to be able to do that. You have already hurt me, and you also hurt my friend. Your mind changes easily and you don't seem to quite know what you want. I know what I want. What I want, and what you want are two different things. What I want right now is a relationship. The greatest happiness is to love and to be loved. That's what I want right now.
From what I can tell, it's not what you want. What you seem to want is someone to call your girlfriend. I don't want to be just a girlfriend, I want our relationship to have actual meaning to it. I don't want to be your girl until the next one comes along. If you are unable to realize what I want, then this is not going to work out.
*Needs work.

You, again.

Why do the easiest things have to be so hard? At least, that's what ignoring someone should be like. It should be easy, nothing to it. You simply just do not talk with the person. And yet, with you, it's the hardest thing I can do. Everything you do makes me want to talk to you, to not ignore you anymore. The way you stand there, the way you act so effortlessly, the way you keep your cool even though your boiling over inside, and most of all, the way you look at me.
I don't enjoy not talking to you, but you brought this upon yourself. Yeah, I'm blaming you. Our relationship was short-lived, maybe could have been longer. Would have been longer if you hadn't of cheated on me while I was at camp. Maybe if you had of talked things out with me, let you know how you were feeling, things would have been alright. But, that didn't happen. None of it did.
I could have easily understood. But, the thing is, you didn't give me a chance to, at all. No, you decided to fuck her and then start to date her, leaving no room in that equation for me. Point blank, you hurt me. A lot. Chewed me up, spit me out and left me there.
The worst thing about all of this is the way I feel about you. How I feel about you right now. Every time I see you, every time I think about you, there's this crazy surge of energy that runs through me. My heart races, and I get insanely nervous. Right now, all I can chalk it up to is attraction. There's a crazy attraction between us that is making me go crazy, every time I see you.
And you can't deny that you don’t feel it as well. I know you do. There's something about the way you look at me that just tells me that you know there's something there. You wont admit it, but I know you know it. Why else would you look at me that way?
Can you just help me please? Explain to me what is going on? Why it is that whenever I look at you, I get nervous and my heart races? Why it is that when I see you, all I can think is, "oh shit, I can't do this?" What is going on between us, if anything? Maybe I'm just crazy, but then again, maybe I'm not. Maybe I'm just crazy for falling for you, all over again.

You.

How is it possible that even after everything that has happened, I still feel something between us? And you can't deny that, it's there, I know it is. That's why I find it a lot easier to just not talk to you. Every time I see you in the hallway, or out in the smoke pit, my heart races, I don't even know how to explain it. It's a stronger attraction than I have ever felt for anyone before. As much as I hide it and will not admit it, I still have feelings for you. I don't know how it's possible, after you fucked her, while dating me, but I do. I understand that yeah sure, I was three hours away and 7 weeks is a lot of time. But, to go out and have sex with her? Really? You really did hurt me. Then, I tried to make things right again, I started talking to you. I thought things may have been good between us again. But, I just found it so hard to talk to you, in person. Everytime I saw you, my heart would race, and I was always scared of saying the wrong thing and screwing things up even more. I just don't know what to do anymore about you. I've pretty much moved on, well at least tried to, but, at the same time, it's hard when it's you I am thinking about.
I think what I am going to do is tell you whats going on, what I am thinking, and just see what happens, I geuss. I mean, whats the worst that could happen? You could say that you dont like me that way any more. Then I say, okay, whatever, and just get on with my life. No big deal.
I geuss what i am saying is, I don't really know what to do about you.